I expect all of you to understand. I'll present two different scenarios... different scenarios, same emotions.
Scenario #1: (for non-theatre types)
You know this person. You've liked werf* for a long time, and love hanging out with werf. Werf always makes you laugh, and you always feel really good when you're around werf. The best thing you can think of would be to date werf. And then something amazing happens... werf asks you out! You agonize for weeks about the date. How is it going to be? Are you going to make a good impression? Are you going to say something stupid? Could this be the start of a fantastic relationship? You go on the date, and everything seems to go well. And then comes... the waiting. Did werf have a good time? Does werf like you? IS WERF GOING TO CALL YOU???
This brings me to scenario #2, for those of us who are theatre-inclined.
There's a play. It's kind of the most awesome play you've ever seen. You've listened to the soundtrack a million times, you know every single song by heart. You go see it every chance you get. And now. Oh, boy. A community theater, the kind you actually have a shot at getting cast at, is holding auditions for your favorite play of ALL TIME. You agonize for weeks. What are you going to sing? Can you get the music in time? What are you going to wear? How will you act? Will the director like you? Will you fit the part? Will there be other people there you mesh with??
You go. You audition. You sing your heart out, and read with all the characterization and energy you have. And now, two days later, you sit and wonder: Are they going to call you? Did they like you? Have they already cast you?
If you can't tell, I had an audition on Saturday. This play has been one of my favorite plays, ever since I was an extra in it in high school. A nearby theater is putting it on. I auditioned Really Well, I think. They had few enough people there that they went ahead and had callbacks during the audition... we all got to read from the script, and we all sang from the musical. They told us they were going to post the cast list online, and they'd call us if we made it.
So we waited. And waited. AND WAITED. And then... online, they posted that instead of casting the show and starting rehearsals on Monday (today), they're having more callbacks on Tuesday. So now, instead of waiting for a call that I'm cast in the show, I'm waiting for a call that I get to come back and audition some more tomorrow. And waiting. And waiting...
Here's the thing about this move. The words say, "Man, we had so many talented people come that we need to see some of you AGAIN! Oh, by the way, if anyone didn't come on Saturday, you can come on Tuesday and try to impress us." The message says, "You guys are NOT going to work for us. Will someone else PLEASE come and audition so that we're not stuck CASTING these losers?" Am I wrong? Maybe that's not the message they were trying to send, but it's definitely the one *I* got.
This waiting game is driving me crazy.
*If you can't tell what it means, go here.